Friday, December 30, 2005
Reviewing 2005 / Top Events 2005
Have been slacked in updating my blog recently, from daily updates to weekly updates now! geezzzzz, always the excuse of busy MSNing at nite n thus cant think properly for blog writing... well, can save it till the day and get it done in office hours when my boss is away rite =P
so i even dun get to mention my christmas holidays, hmmm at least it's not as bored as i tot of earlier, probably depression is in effect again last week. Okie, so today is already the 2nd last day of 2005 and as a mediocre writer I am *haha*, this is the time to review my life in 2005 / pick some of those top events for 2005...
honestly, it's just another year for me... but i tot i have sure expanded my circle of friendship / life within this year, this is sure a gd / plus thing, as i can still remember how boring my life is in between the two relationships (noticeably some times in 2004)... abt relationships, its also a gd thing that one started this year, though it didnt turn out quite well, tat must be sth that i shd cherish this year as well. Oh and abt all these fdship stuff, i must realli thx to some of my good fds for their influence =P tot that's one of the main reason for my expansion of my fd circle realli...
i also got some more chances to go to travel this year: Macau, Japan n Singapore... wow finally i've achieved some wishes for myself earlier to get to more trips... always a good than bad to travel more...
another big thing during this yr is abt my workout rountine: probably got much more time for gym this yr, thx to my pressure-free work, and i consider myself some good improvements. Got a more regulated time n rountine to workout, also contributed by the completion of PT course in the beginning of this yr... hoping tat i can achieve more in the comin yr (tryin to get more noticeable) :P
one blow to me this year is in the financial aspect... always tot myself is good in self financial-mgmt, but it turned out to be quite the opposite: growing expenditure, stupid investment decisions (most imptly gambling stocks early in the year, and then warrants in the mid / late of the year), to be numerically concrete: Total Asset -0.5% for the year! (am expecting some 100% growth in it actually... & one good thing is tat Net Asset got an increase due to decreasing loan payables) well it's always said that lesson comes w a price, n i learnt my lesson in this yr, at least i tot i m smarter now in warrant investing n those stuffs, hope can try to get some good gains in the coming yr LOL!!
finally its abt my mentality towards love... hm... sth inside myself is missing actually, or i m just that type of person? m still confused n wondering abt that... honestly, i wanna solve this out (or not to say solve, but at least made myself less confused) and probably this is a thing v impt towards my next relationship =)
Happy New Year 2006 to me! (n all those who read my blog!!)
so i even dun get to mention my christmas holidays, hmmm at least it's not as bored as i tot of earlier, probably depression is in effect again last week. Okie, so today is already the 2nd last day of 2005 and as a mediocre writer I am *haha*, this is the time to review my life in 2005 / pick some of those top events for 2005...
honestly, it's just another year for me... but i tot i have sure expanded my circle of friendship / life within this year, this is sure a gd / plus thing, as i can still remember how boring my life is in between the two relationships (noticeably some times in 2004)... abt relationships, its also a gd thing that one started this year, though it didnt turn out quite well, tat must be sth that i shd cherish this year as well. Oh and abt all these fdship stuff, i must realli thx to some of my good fds for their influence =P tot that's one of the main reason for my expansion of my fd circle realli...
i also got some more chances to go to travel this year: Macau, Japan n Singapore... wow finally i've achieved some wishes for myself earlier to get to more trips... always a good than bad to travel more...
another big thing during this yr is abt my workout rountine: probably got much more time for gym this yr, thx to my pressure-free work, and i consider myself some good improvements. Got a more regulated time n rountine to workout, also contributed by the completion of PT course in the beginning of this yr... hoping tat i can achieve more in the comin yr (tryin to get more noticeable) :P
one blow to me this year is in the financial aspect... always tot myself is good in self financial-mgmt, but it turned out to be quite the opposite: growing expenditure, stupid investment decisions (most imptly gambling stocks early in the year, and then warrants in the mid / late of the year), to be numerically concrete: Total Asset -0.5% for the year! (am expecting some 100% growth in it actually... & one good thing is tat Net Asset got an increase due to decreasing loan payables) well it's always said that lesson comes w a price, n i learnt my lesson in this yr, at least i tot i m smarter now in warrant investing n those stuffs, hope can try to get some good gains in the coming yr LOL!!
finally its abt my mentality towards love... hm... sth inside myself is missing actually, or i m just that type of person? m still confused n wondering abt that... honestly, i wanna solve this out (or not to say solve, but at least made myself less confused) and probably this is a thing v impt towards my next relationship =)
Happy New Year 2006 to me! (n all those who read my blog!!)
Thursday, December 22, 2005
The Political Reform Vetoed
Yesterday shd be a big day in HK's politics, that is, the 2007/08 CE Election Bill & the Legco Bill has been vetoed. Sure this is the headliner of all newspaper today, and this shows how poorly written is all HK papers (just so lame-o, all r biased!)... Anyway, this time I think the whole HK is a loser of this 'so-called' argument, i'd describe it like a car crash, but the drivers r still survived, now it shd be better to look forward and hope that HK will hv a universal suffrage ASAP (pls not until 2046). and honestly, i didnt think the Democrats won a 'nice' battle this time... quoting a commentary today from mingpao... i tot Mr Lau's speech is one of the best-said by all those legislative councilors:
劉千石﹕置於天秤中心的視角 和一步一步的政改立場
2005年12月22日
【明報專訊】政改議案被否決，劉千石是唯一投棄權票的泛民主派議員。本版特將其昨日在立法會發言全文刊出(包括其廣東話用語，不作修改)，讓讀者了解這名倡導和解、一度被指會轉軚的議員的心路歷程。 ——編者
無論係經濟改革，定係政治改革，北京都係摸住石頭過河，見步行步。北京對香港政改嘅理解都係一樣，一步一步嘅進行，見一步走一步。西方一人一票民主，係經過長年累月嘅掙扎，先至成為今日看似理所當然嘅歷史產物。中共係用槍桿子取得政權，同西方經由選舉取得政權截然不同，不論對抑或錯，呢個都係我哋要承認嘅歷史發展差異。
一步一步的政改立場
中央政府因過去文化同歷史背景，採取一步一步嘅政改政策。對於一步一步政策，我哋會有兩個睇法﹕第一，行一步總比「停喺度」好﹔第二，一步一步走，要到幾時先到達目標。當然，行一步總比唔行更接近目標。但係對有期待嘅人嚟講，呢個係佢哋應得嘅政治權利，佢哋係有權知道幾時到達目標。一步一步走同定出時間表，兩者係無必然嘅衝突同矛盾。北京喺一步一步嘅政改方向前提下，其實係可以給予時間表。香港人係值得相信，絕大部分香港人喺過去嘅表現，都係克制同理性。普選時間表係眾多市民嘅期盼，而落實時間表，就成為推動政改同我哋努力嘅目標。
78歲老人嘅呼喊令人感慨。其實早喺佢出生以前，即民國二年，國民政府嘅兩個議會——眾議會同參議會——已經由普選產生。回顧近代中國歷史，最大嘅問題就係領袖話點就係點，一個人嘅腦袋代替千萬人嘅腦袋。文化大革命嘅時候，毛澤東一句頂一萬句，係領袖指揮棒發揮最極致嘅時間，亦係中國最悲慘嘅時間。台灣要到80年代末期先開放黨禁，一等就係70幾年。但係我哋今日睇到嘅台灣社會，非藍即綠，亦係由某一兩個領袖話事。新加坡亦係如此。點解華人社會會係咁樣呢﹖我哋缺乏咗啲乜呢﹖答案只有一個，就係欠缺獨立思考，欠缺每個人都應該有不同嘅諗法，唔係跟隨領袖嘅指揮棒。
從12月4日爭取普選遊行同過去種種活動，我哋睇到香港人係有理想同愛香港。有人可以提出政改嘅方案﹔亦有人提出顧及理想同現實之間嘅方案﹔有人可以組政黨，誓不罷休地為理想而爭取﹔有人繼續尋常生活，為維持生計而努力辛勤工作。我哋要做嘅係強調大家共同嘅地方，唔係誇大彼此嘅分歧。香港人共同擁有嘅特點，就係我哋對香港嘅關愛同理想，香港就係我哋每一個人安身立命嘅地方。我哋共同擁有嘅，就係對香港呢一份愛。
我對政改的意見
對於香港政治發展，過去一段時間我曾經不斷向有關方面提出意見﹕第一，可以先實行單普選，先易後難﹔第二，千萬唔好再增加傳統功能團體議席，呢個唔係公平與否嘅問題，而係傳統功能組別，將界別利益凌駕喺整體利益之上。我喺1991年已開始強調呢個睇法。
今次報告書無增加傳統功能議席，將傳統功能組別畫上一句句號，係走前一步。若再增加傳統功能組別議席，係易發難收。另外，增加5個區議會互選嘅議席，都係應該肯定，但保留委任區議員，係我不能接受。
我哋喺20年前已將爭取普選定為目標，雖然我哋唔知道呢條路有幾遠，但我哋唔係光坐喺度等時間表來臨。不過我哋得承認，我哋並未為落實普選，下過好大嘅工夫，創造有利嘅條件。今次我哋爭取普選來臨嘅一天，就唔應該再浪費時間，要認真研究好多尚未得到解決嘅問題。
例如，特首可唔可以係政黨成員呢﹖如果特首唔屬於任何政黨，佢要點樣爭取政黨嘅支持呢﹖佢要喺邊度搵同佢有共同理念、肯榮辱與共嘅執政團隊呢﹖
又或者，行政機關繼續壟斷制定政策嘅權力，咁議員又點樣可以實踐佢哋嘅參選政綱呢﹖如果立法會要有權參與制定政策，咁仲可唔可以好似宜家咁，大部分議員都係兼職問政呢﹖立法會要點樣運作先可以配合到呢﹖例如事務委員會，係咪仲係任由議員自由參與，抑或要某程度反映議會嘅黨派勢力分布呢﹖
又或者，問責官員同公務員應該點分工呢﹖如果公務員要維持政治中立，唔再負責推銷政策，咁問責官員數目係咪應該增加呢﹖而公務員隊伍又有無足夠嘅訓練，面對將來可能出現嘅政黨輪替，需要執行截然不同嘅政策呢﹖
再或者，實行普選之後，我哋點可以喺制度上保障少數人嘅利益呢﹖呢個唔單止係工商界關心嘅課題，其實亦涉及弱勢社群(例如少數族裔同不同性傾向人士)嘅權益。
雖然以上嘅問題唔係落實普選嘅前提，但我哋都要認真討論，而無論幾時落實普選都好，我哋都應該盡快達至共識。
置於天秤中心的視角
同樣重要嘅係，我哋要喺尋常日子中，實踐接納同包容嘅生活態度。
我曾經以家庭嘅比喻嚟說明中央同香港嘅關係。中港關係恍如大家庭裏嘅家長同家庭成員，無論家庭中有聽話嘅，或者調皮搗蛋嘅，都係家庭成員嘅一分子。喺過去，呢個家長可能比較喜歡聽話嘅家庭成員，喜愛親中派同工商界。用一個天秤做比喻，佢並非企喺天秤嘅中間。但喺呢一年間，我哋見到佢向天秤中心移動，畢竟，佢嘗試維持企喺天秤中心嘅視角。呢種向天秤中心嘅移動，對既得利益者有必然嘅影響。佢向天秤中心嘅移動，係值得我哋給與適當嘅肯定。同樣，呢次政改方案，亦係將原來傾斜親中派同工商界一邊，稍為移向中間，不過我哋期望法碼再向另一方移動。結果爭持不下，天秤倒下。
呢一年間，我哋見證咗北京對香港同民主派嘅基本改變。北京係親中派嘅政府，亦係民主派嘅政府。佢就係嘗試以天秤中心嘅視角去看待香港。我十分珍惜呢種改變，最少呢種持平嘅視角比傾向天秤一邊更為理想。更重要嘅係，呢種家庭關係嘅發展，最少北京唔會輕易指摘持不同意見者係反中亂港，最少我哋亦唔會動輒攻擊北京摧毀一國兩制。將以往嘅敵我關係，變成大家庭成員嘅關係，對香港、甚至大陸嘅民主進程，都有極大幫助。香港民主發展對大陸民主發展起住示範作用，我哋都係大家庭嘅一分子，係過程中努力嘗試，尋找出路。我相信，大陸嘅民主化，亦係你、我所希望嘅。而且我哋都明白，中央同香港民主派嘅關係惡化，只會阻礙民主發展，百害而無一利。
然而，係討論政改嘅過程中，我哋好快就進入一種互不信任嘅前提判斷。我當然明白，從過去中共嘅歷史，以及種種災難性嘅政治運動，從我哋自身嘅經驗，我哋好容易作出呢種判斷。因此，無論佢做得有幾啱，但因為係佢，我哋就覺得唔妥當，就對佢唔信任，就要同佢作對。若我哋真嘅持有呢種前設，否定佢嘅本質，我哋可以做嘅，就係採取革命手段去推翻呢個政權。但係，呢種以革命推翻嘅手法，並唔係我哋所想，亦唔係我哋有能力做到。
我認為宜家係好值得反省嘅時刻。如果我哋都希望成為一家人，成為大家庭嘅一分子，大家嘅共同點都係為呢個家庭好，最重要嘅就係願意承認每個家庭成員都有犯錯嘅時候，尤其係喺整個民主發展嘅過程中，自己唔一定擁有無上嘅真理。我哋宜家要做判斷，係要基於佢當前所做嘅一切，而唔係因為佢嘅過去，命定佢嘅本質。誠然，我哋對中共嘅理解，亦唔係鐵板一塊，我哋對胡耀邦，有好好嘅評價。因此，做得好嘅，我哋要願意欣賞，無需要等到佢哋下台先欣賞，甚至死後先哀悼。過去一年，國家副主席曾慶紅對港澳事務，採取開放同包容嘅政策，係值得肯定同支持，係應該繼續發展嘅。
對於我哋嚟講，和諧嘅社會就係爭取公義同民主。然而，對於擁有如此複雜歷史背景嘅中國嚟講，和諧社會就係唔再以政治運動同階級鬥爭為綱打擊他人。我覺得呢個已經係一個進步，係值得我哋欣賞。唯有建立互相欣賞、互相信任嘅基礎，先係邁進民主嘅重要一步。
自政改報告出籠以來，傳媒也好，市民也好，政府也好，似乎都把焦點放係邊個支持、邊個反對、邊個轉軚。我關心嘅係各方能否找到共識，為香港嘅民主走出一大步。然而痛心嘅係，無論呢次政改方案係獲得通過抑或被否決，都有一半人會失望。
我哋實在需要更多嘅互諒互讓，我哋實在需要更多嘅顧全大局。所以我呢一票只能空白。我知道我咁樣投票，必然會招來嚴厲嘅批評同痛罵﹔然而，我會對呢啲批評同痛罵，當作對我自己唔能夠改變呢種情况嘅一種懲罰，亦都作為我對北京唔會因為呢次政改結果而改變開放包容立場嘅期望。
劉千石﹕置於天秤中心的視角 和一步一步的政改立場
2005年12月22日
【明報專訊】政改議案被否決，劉千石是唯一投棄權票的泛民主派議員。本版特將其昨日在立法會發言全文刊出(包括其廣東話用語，不作修改)，讓讀者了解這名倡導和解、一度被指會轉軚的議員的心路歷程。 ——編者
無論係經濟改革，定係政治改革，北京都係摸住石頭過河，見步行步。北京對香港政改嘅理解都係一樣，一步一步嘅進行，見一步走一步。西方一人一票民主，係經過長年累月嘅掙扎，先至成為今日看似理所當然嘅歷史產物。中共係用槍桿子取得政權，同西方經由選舉取得政權截然不同，不論對抑或錯，呢個都係我哋要承認嘅歷史發展差異。
一步一步的政改立場
中央政府因過去文化同歷史背景，採取一步一步嘅政改政策。對於一步一步政策，我哋會有兩個睇法﹕第一，行一步總比「停喺度」好﹔第二，一步一步走，要到幾時先到達目標。當然，行一步總比唔行更接近目標。但係對有期待嘅人嚟講，呢個係佢哋應得嘅政治權利，佢哋係有權知道幾時到達目標。一步一步走同定出時間表，兩者係無必然嘅衝突同矛盾。北京喺一步一步嘅政改方向前提下，其實係可以給予時間表。香港人係值得相信，絕大部分香港人喺過去嘅表現，都係克制同理性。普選時間表係眾多市民嘅期盼，而落實時間表，就成為推動政改同我哋努力嘅目標。
78歲老人嘅呼喊令人感慨。其實早喺佢出生以前，即民國二年，國民政府嘅兩個議會——眾議會同參議會——已經由普選產生。回顧近代中國歷史，最大嘅問題就係領袖話點就係點，一個人嘅腦袋代替千萬人嘅腦袋。文化大革命嘅時候，毛澤東一句頂一萬句，係領袖指揮棒發揮最極致嘅時間，亦係中國最悲慘嘅時間。台灣要到80年代末期先開放黨禁，一等就係70幾年。但係我哋今日睇到嘅台灣社會，非藍即綠，亦係由某一兩個領袖話事。新加坡亦係如此。點解華人社會會係咁樣呢﹖我哋缺乏咗啲乜呢﹖答案只有一個，就係欠缺獨立思考，欠缺每個人都應該有不同嘅諗法，唔係跟隨領袖嘅指揮棒。
從12月4日爭取普選遊行同過去種種活動，我哋睇到香港人係有理想同愛香港。有人可以提出政改嘅方案﹔亦有人提出顧及理想同現實之間嘅方案﹔有人可以組政黨，誓不罷休地為理想而爭取﹔有人繼續尋常生活，為維持生計而努力辛勤工作。我哋要做嘅係強調大家共同嘅地方，唔係誇大彼此嘅分歧。香港人共同擁有嘅特點，就係我哋對香港嘅關愛同理想，香港就係我哋每一個人安身立命嘅地方。我哋共同擁有嘅，就係對香港呢一份愛。
我對政改的意見
對於香港政治發展，過去一段時間我曾經不斷向有關方面提出意見﹕第一，可以先實行單普選，先易後難﹔第二，千萬唔好再增加傳統功能團體議席，呢個唔係公平與否嘅問題，而係傳統功能組別，將界別利益凌駕喺整體利益之上。我喺1991年已開始強調呢個睇法。
今次報告書無增加傳統功能議席，將傳統功能組別畫上一句句號，係走前一步。若再增加傳統功能組別議席，係易發難收。另外，增加5個區議會互選嘅議席，都係應該肯定，但保留委任區議員，係我不能接受。
我哋喺20年前已將爭取普選定為目標，雖然我哋唔知道呢條路有幾遠，但我哋唔係光坐喺度等時間表來臨。不過我哋得承認，我哋並未為落實普選，下過好大嘅工夫，創造有利嘅條件。今次我哋爭取普選來臨嘅一天，就唔應該再浪費時間，要認真研究好多尚未得到解決嘅問題。
例如，特首可唔可以係政黨成員呢﹖如果特首唔屬於任何政黨，佢要點樣爭取政黨嘅支持呢﹖佢要喺邊度搵同佢有共同理念、肯榮辱與共嘅執政團隊呢﹖
又或者，行政機關繼續壟斷制定政策嘅權力，咁議員又點樣可以實踐佢哋嘅參選政綱呢﹖如果立法會要有權參與制定政策，咁仲可唔可以好似宜家咁，大部分議員都係兼職問政呢﹖立法會要點樣運作先可以配合到呢﹖例如事務委員會，係咪仲係任由議員自由參與，抑或要某程度反映議會嘅黨派勢力分布呢﹖
又或者，問責官員同公務員應該點分工呢﹖如果公務員要維持政治中立，唔再負責推銷政策，咁問責官員數目係咪應該增加呢﹖而公務員隊伍又有無足夠嘅訓練，面對將來可能出現嘅政黨輪替，需要執行截然不同嘅政策呢﹖
再或者，實行普選之後，我哋點可以喺制度上保障少數人嘅利益呢﹖呢個唔單止係工商界關心嘅課題，其實亦涉及弱勢社群(例如少數族裔同不同性傾向人士)嘅權益。
雖然以上嘅問題唔係落實普選嘅前提，但我哋都要認真討論，而無論幾時落實普選都好，我哋都應該盡快達至共識。
置於天秤中心的視角
同樣重要嘅係，我哋要喺尋常日子中，實踐接納同包容嘅生活態度。
我曾經以家庭嘅比喻嚟說明中央同香港嘅關係。中港關係恍如大家庭裏嘅家長同家庭成員，無論家庭中有聽話嘅，或者調皮搗蛋嘅，都係家庭成員嘅一分子。喺過去，呢個家長可能比較喜歡聽話嘅家庭成員，喜愛親中派同工商界。用一個天秤做比喻，佢並非企喺天秤嘅中間。但喺呢一年間，我哋見到佢向天秤中心移動，畢竟，佢嘗試維持企喺天秤中心嘅視角。呢種向天秤中心嘅移動，對既得利益者有必然嘅影響。佢向天秤中心嘅移動，係值得我哋給與適當嘅肯定。同樣，呢次政改方案，亦係將原來傾斜親中派同工商界一邊，稍為移向中間，不過我哋期望法碼再向另一方移動。結果爭持不下，天秤倒下。
呢一年間，我哋見證咗北京對香港同民主派嘅基本改變。北京係親中派嘅政府，亦係民主派嘅政府。佢就係嘗試以天秤中心嘅視角去看待香港。我十分珍惜呢種改變，最少呢種持平嘅視角比傾向天秤一邊更為理想。更重要嘅係，呢種家庭關係嘅發展，最少北京唔會輕易指摘持不同意見者係反中亂港，最少我哋亦唔會動輒攻擊北京摧毀一國兩制。將以往嘅敵我關係，變成大家庭成員嘅關係，對香港、甚至大陸嘅民主進程，都有極大幫助。香港民主發展對大陸民主發展起住示範作用，我哋都係大家庭嘅一分子，係過程中努力嘗試，尋找出路。我相信，大陸嘅民主化，亦係你、我所希望嘅。而且我哋都明白，中央同香港民主派嘅關係惡化，只會阻礙民主發展，百害而無一利。
然而，係討論政改嘅過程中，我哋好快就進入一種互不信任嘅前提判斷。我當然明白，從過去中共嘅歷史，以及種種災難性嘅政治運動，從我哋自身嘅經驗，我哋好容易作出呢種判斷。因此，無論佢做得有幾啱，但因為係佢，我哋就覺得唔妥當，就對佢唔信任，就要同佢作對。若我哋真嘅持有呢種前設，否定佢嘅本質，我哋可以做嘅，就係採取革命手段去推翻呢個政權。但係，呢種以革命推翻嘅手法，並唔係我哋所想，亦唔係我哋有能力做到。
我認為宜家係好值得反省嘅時刻。如果我哋都希望成為一家人，成為大家庭嘅一分子，大家嘅共同點都係為呢個家庭好，最重要嘅就係願意承認每個家庭成員都有犯錯嘅時候，尤其係喺整個民主發展嘅過程中，自己唔一定擁有無上嘅真理。我哋宜家要做判斷，係要基於佢當前所做嘅一切，而唔係因為佢嘅過去，命定佢嘅本質。誠然，我哋對中共嘅理解，亦唔係鐵板一塊，我哋對胡耀邦，有好好嘅評價。因此，做得好嘅，我哋要願意欣賞，無需要等到佢哋下台先欣賞，甚至死後先哀悼。過去一年，國家副主席曾慶紅對港澳事務，採取開放同包容嘅政策，係值得肯定同支持，係應該繼續發展嘅。
對於我哋嚟講，和諧嘅社會就係爭取公義同民主。然而，對於擁有如此複雜歷史背景嘅中國嚟講，和諧社會就係唔再以政治運動同階級鬥爭為綱打擊他人。我覺得呢個已經係一個進步，係值得我哋欣賞。唯有建立互相欣賞、互相信任嘅基礎，先係邁進民主嘅重要一步。
自政改報告出籠以來，傳媒也好，市民也好，政府也好，似乎都把焦點放係邊個支持、邊個反對、邊個轉軚。我關心嘅係各方能否找到共識，為香港嘅民主走出一大步。然而痛心嘅係，無論呢次政改方案係獲得通過抑或被否決，都有一半人會失望。
我哋實在需要更多嘅互諒互讓，我哋實在需要更多嘅顧全大局。所以我呢一票只能空白。我知道我咁樣投票，必然會招來嚴厲嘅批評同痛罵﹔然而，我會對呢啲批評同痛罵，當作對我自己唔能夠改變呢種情况嘅一種懲罰，亦都作為我對北京唔會因為呢次政改結果而改變開放包容立場嘅期望。
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Stressed, Stretched, Strayed
It has been a whole week tat I havent updated my blog... it has been too busy for me to update whenever i wanna do so; or when i m free to write, am just not in the mood / inspiration to get it done as well... so finally i m writing now during this office-hour day when all my bosses r away =P
To start with, it's all about the few MSN exchanges with Chloe some nites ago. It came to my surprise tat wat u tot is exactly the same as wat i tot recently... too little sharings on own feelings in the blog (gurls got such a strong sense on tis!) i tot this is becoz it's always not tat str8-forward for me to write out my feelings... coz they come n go so quick n so easily, by the time i wanna jot it down on my blog, they go away without a trace... (btw, thx for spending time on my blog chloe, i nvr realise i got some readers here)
Christmas is always a great festival, a good time to be joyful, blah blah... but wat i feel it's always a season for couples, not for single ppl like me... tis gets deep down inside me after the year of 2003, n this yr the feelin is as strong as before again... and tat led to another thoughts... m I such a bad person to love? or i got any flaws tat r incompatible by so many others? some fd said i m being too picky or my standards r too high... but how can i love someone if i dun got the feelins? or i hv to say... i wanna tell, but i m nervous abt the consequences, the fear of losing a fd to me is sth v big to me (being a self-admitted perfectionist, i hope my fdship with all my fds can be stayed intact) ...... Anyway, anyone is willing to invite me to go out during the christmas holidays? (sigh... so wu liao for me)
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Another thing tat happened recently is Lamond, who's fr SG has been visitin HK lately. I juz wonder why everyone's so interested on askin me tat why i m so keen to show him ard? To shut u guys' mouth: am just free to do so (since i m such bored as read above); n i feel if i m being treated like tat during my earlier trip to SG (since all guys in SG r so nice), am just reciprocating to their kindness... so stop bitchin for u guys =P
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Sth more is tat recently i come across so many hearts tat need to be cared n to be comforted... hope u guys r happy as usual again...
Well, there r also good things coming along by this week, mostly on the financial side... and probably this is a record =P ... i feel scared by the numbers as well: (2004, 1828) ... ask me wat's that =P
To start with, it's all about the few MSN exchanges with Chloe some nites ago. It came to my surprise tat wat u tot is exactly the same as wat i tot recently... too little sharings on own feelings in the blog (gurls got such a strong sense on tis!) i tot this is becoz it's always not tat str8-forward for me to write out my feelings... coz they come n go so quick n so easily, by the time i wanna jot it down on my blog, they go away without a trace... (btw, thx for spending time on my blog chloe, i nvr realise i got some readers here)
Christmas is always a great festival, a good time to be joyful, blah blah... but wat i feel it's always a season for couples, not for single ppl like me... tis gets deep down inside me after the year of 2003, n this yr the feelin is as strong as before again... and tat led to another thoughts... m I such a bad person to love? or i got any flaws tat r incompatible by so many others? some fd said i m being too picky or my standards r too high... but how can i love someone if i dun got the feelins? or i hv to say... i wanna tell, but i m nervous abt the consequences, the fear of losing a fd to me is sth v big to me (being a self-admitted perfectionist, i hope my fdship with all my fds can be stayed intact) ...... Anyway, anyone is willing to invite me to go out during the christmas holidays? (sigh... so wu liao for me)
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Another thing tat happened recently is Lamond, who's fr SG has been visitin HK lately. I juz wonder why everyone's so interested on askin me tat why i m so keen to show him ard? To shut u guys' mouth: am just free to do so (since i m such bored as read above); n i feel if i m being treated like tat during my earlier trip to SG (since all guys in SG r so nice), am just reciprocating to their kindness... so stop bitchin for u guys =P
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Sth more is tat recently i come across so many hearts tat need to be cared n to be comforted... hope u guys r happy as usual again...
Well, there r also good things coming along by this week, mostly on the financial side... and probably this is a record =P ... i feel scared by the numbers as well: (2004, 1828) ... ask me wat's that =P
Monday, December 12, 2005
D.R.Y
Recently there's a growing distaste on work of myself... being impatient to unreasonable requests from both my subordinates as well as my bosses. Just feel like there is no more to learn here n the existin pay is getting more unjustified. More fds r tellin me to not to stay at here, and the golden time to change job is going to pass. Well, what am i waiting for? but being jobless to hunt for a new job sounds v insecure to myself, n i m getting into a blind-alley of job searches / unsatisfaction to job paid...
Anyway, my life is getting v dry recently, just as the current weather, i hope i can quickly get out of this mindset, i know tis is dangerous...
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11p.m.
After a workout (nice back workout tonite), i feel a bit relieved from my depression... tot i was too stressed out on many issues - drought life; monotonous work; financial pressure (i dun meant i m in debt, but just foresee i cant save money for months!); being unwanted =P... anyway, hope to help myself out from even more negative thoughts. Also being an impatient n rush-y rush type of ppl, i think i do exert some pressure on my fd in specific issues recently... my apology to u...
Anyway, my life is getting v dry recently, just as the current weather, i hope i can quickly get out of this mindset, i know tis is dangerous...
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11p.m.
After a workout (nice back workout tonite), i feel a bit relieved from my depression... tot i was too stressed out on many issues - drought life; monotonous work; financial pressure (i dun meant i m in debt, but just foresee i cant save money for months!); being unwanted =P... anyway, hope to help myself out from even more negative thoughts. Also being an impatient n rush-y rush type of ppl, i think i do exert some pressure on my fd in specific issues recently... my apology to u...
Friday, December 09, 2005
After 12.4 Demonstration
This is by far the BEST editorial i've read re 12.4 demonstration, just to share here: (excerpted from Mingpao, 9 Dec 05)
蔡子強﹕遊行之後
2005年12月9日
【明報專訊】作者為中文大學政治與行政學系高級導師
政治學大師Samuel P. Huntington曾說過﹕「If reform is an excuse for incomplete action, then revolution is an excuse for complete inaction.(如果「改革」是「不完全行動」的藉口，那麼「革命」則是「完全不行動」的藉口了。)」
我今年剛好40歲，在我前半生影響自己最大的政治事件，並不是03年七一大遊行，而是89年的六四。在那個熱血沸騰的夏天，大家都全情投入，但最後運動卻不能開花結果，反而賠上了很多年青的生命，在無比傷痛之餘，大家都陷入深切的反省之中。
在那個沉鬱的暑假，社運界在中大辦了一個檢討營，大家討論到八九民運是成功還是失敗。我的答案是毋庸諱言，運動是失敗了，所以我們需要重新檢討民運的策略。但當時一位如今人盡皆識的社運急先鋒，與我激辯起來，批評我為什麼要「長他人志氣，滅自己威風」，他說六四令千千萬萬中國同胞擦亮了眼睛，看透這個屠夫政權的真正面目，不再存有絲毫幻想，所以新一波的民主運動將會來得很快，更加洶湧澎湃，到時便是民運收割的日子。我就反駁，說這類漂亮的說話，相信在反右和文革之後，都一定有人說過。
16年後的今天，誰對誰錯，相信大家再清楚不過。當年學生與政權內的改革派如趙紫陽拉倒，導致「破局」，對國內民運的影響，大家都見到。
很多年後我到台灣考察，與民進黨內的「學運世代」談起，他們說當年「野百合」學生運動，也曾深切從八九民運汲取了教訓，知道即使是幾偉大的民主理想，在適當的時候也應該「落地」，不能只做漫天起舞、飛得漂亮的「無腳蜻蜓」，最終不能落地生根。所以在波瀾壯闊的連串絕食、靜坐、遊行、抗議後，還是毅然決定與當時國民黨內的改革派李登輝結盟，打擊保守派的郝伯村，結果當地的民主運動遂能開花結果。當然他們心底裏從來沒有把李登輝當作「民主救星」，也知道這是「浮士德」式的交易，但卻別無它法，因為在當時的形勢下，讓李登輝被拉倒，只會讓郝伯村等強硬派得逞，令局面更糟。
有一次在梁文道主持的電視節目中，偶爾聽到嘉賓湯家驊如此說，政改方案拉倒無所謂，因為到了2011年時，追求民主的聲音一定會相較現在更加洶湧澎湃(大意如此)。可惜當時我不在現場，否則的話，我一定會告訴湯先生以上的故事，六四後幾多香港人心灰意冷，選擇移民一走了之。民主運動要能不斷茁壯長大，便必須要適時地讓它開花結果。
八九民運與台灣
12．4大遊行後，政改從高潮陷進一個悶局。正如劉細良上周在本欄提到，香港過去20年的政治文化，是沒有政治協商、只會不斷「破局」的怪圈。我一直支持遊行當日港人要出來遊行，好讓中央及特區政府知道民間對普選的訴求有多大，但卻一樣倡議遊行後民主派要適時妥協和落地。
如果倡議民主不是為了搶佔道德高地，而是要開花結果的話，梁文道上周在《明報》筆陣寫的一篇文章《我有看見普選的一天嗎﹖》，大家便要認真思考。
我從來無意把民主姍姍來遲的責任推諉給民主派，相反，我認識了他們20年，一直敬重他們20年來的堅持，要說到責任，當然中央、特區政府以及工商界的落後和保守，責任更大。但問題是，民主派作為領導的責任，就是在面對如此保守的對手時，如何盡量擴大民主的成果。你可能會說這樣很不公平，但這也是任重道遠的地方。
有評論認為民主派應絲毫不讓，在政改問題絕不妥協。「民主並非嗟來之食」、「民主並非施捨」等，這類說話當然可輕易說得冠冕堂皇，但這令我想起柴玲當年在廣場說的「頭可斷、血可流、人民廣場不可丟」。究竟這類慷慨激昂的漂亮說話，對運動最後是否真的有幫助﹖16年後大家都知道。老實的說，我相信大部分香港人，包括民主派，以及那幾個說得聲嘶力竭的評論家，雖然都支持香港盡快實行普選，但卻從沒有真的想過要為民主拋頭顱，灑熱血。唯一的例外可能是長毛，所以我對長毛也特別尊重。如果是這樣的話，那麼民主派就要在籌碼不多的情下，看看手上有多少牌，然後打出相匹配的民主策略。我們不是南韓，不是台灣，我們是香港。
「改革比革命需要更多的政治智慧，而革命則比改革需要更多的政治社會條件。」從近日各種的民調中，大家都不難知道，今天的香港，並不具備與中央和特區政府在政改上打一場硬仗的條件，那麼退而求其次，尋求改革，就需要我們的政治領袖更加成熟，不是單單當一個空想口號家。
寫篇這樣的文章，預了給人批評是「投降主義」，甚至是「出賣民主」。但坦白寫出這些觀點及考慮，是我作為一個知識分子的責任，責任當前，不容退縮。
就讓我再一次以胡平的一段說話作結﹕「(投入一場運動)決不僅僅是為了拯救自己的靈魂、證明自己的良心、實現真正的自我，也決不僅僅是為了讓全世界向我們致敬……更重要的是，我們是為了取得實實在在的成功，是為了改進我們生存的環境，是為了讓所有的人能夠生活得比以前更好一些。」
只有在這種自覺和清醒，講求成敗得失的「戰略理性」(strategic rationality)下，政治才能成就大業，而不單是追求個人道德上的自我救贖和夢囈。
蔡子強﹕遊行之後
2005年12月9日
【明報專訊】作者為中文大學政治與行政學系高級導師
政治學大師Samuel P. Huntington曾說過﹕「If reform is an excuse for incomplete action, then revolution is an excuse for complete inaction.(如果「改革」是「不完全行動」的藉口，那麼「革命」則是「完全不行動」的藉口了。)」
我今年剛好40歲，在我前半生影響自己最大的政治事件，並不是03年七一大遊行，而是89年的六四。在那個熱血沸騰的夏天，大家都全情投入，但最後運動卻不能開花結果，反而賠上了很多年青的生命，在無比傷痛之餘，大家都陷入深切的反省之中。
在那個沉鬱的暑假，社運界在中大辦了一個檢討營，大家討論到八九民運是成功還是失敗。我的答案是毋庸諱言，運動是失敗了，所以我們需要重新檢討民運的策略。但當時一位如今人盡皆識的社運急先鋒，與我激辯起來，批評我為什麼要「長他人志氣，滅自己威風」，他說六四令千千萬萬中國同胞擦亮了眼睛，看透這個屠夫政權的真正面目，不再存有絲毫幻想，所以新一波的民主運動將會來得很快，更加洶湧澎湃，到時便是民運收割的日子。我就反駁，說這類漂亮的說話，相信在反右和文革之後，都一定有人說過。
16年後的今天，誰對誰錯，相信大家再清楚不過。當年學生與政權內的改革派如趙紫陽拉倒，導致「破局」，對國內民運的影響，大家都見到。
很多年後我到台灣考察，與民進黨內的「學運世代」談起，他們說當年「野百合」學生運動，也曾深切從八九民運汲取了教訓，知道即使是幾偉大的民主理想，在適當的時候也應該「落地」，不能只做漫天起舞、飛得漂亮的「無腳蜻蜓」，最終不能落地生根。所以在波瀾壯闊的連串絕食、靜坐、遊行、抗議後，還是毅然決定與當時國民黨內的改革派李登輝結盟，打擊保守派的郝伯村，結果當地的民主運動遂能開花結果。當然他們心底裏從來沒有把李登輝當作「民主救星」，也知道這是「浮士德」式的交易，但卻別無它法，因為在當時的形勢下，讓李登輝被拉倒，只會讓郝伯村等強硬派得逞，令局面更糟。
有一次在梁文道主持的電視節目中，偶爾聽到嘉賓湯家驊如此說，政改方案拉倒無所謂，因為到了2011年時，追求民主的聲音一定會相較現在更加洶湧澎湃(大意如此)。可惜當時我不在現場，否則的話，我一定會告訴湯先生以上的故事，六四後幾多香港人心灰意冷，選擇移民一走了之。民主運動要能不斷茁壯長大，便必須要適時地讓它開花結果。
八九民運與台灣
12．4大遊行後，政改從高潮陷進一個悶局。正如劉細良上周在本欄提到，香港過去20年的政治文化，是沒有政治協商、只會不斷「破局」的怪圈。我一直支持遊行當日港人要出來遊行，好讓中央及特區政府知道民間對普選的訴求有多大，但卻一樣倡議遊行後民主派要適時妥協和落地。
如果倡議民主不是為了搶佔道德高地，而是要開花結果的話，梁文道上周在《明報》筆陣寫的一篇文章《我有看見普選的一天嗎﹖》，大家便要認真思考。
我從來無意把民主姍姍來遲的責任推諉給民主派，相反，我認識了他們20年，一直敬重他們20年來的堅持，要說到責任，當然中央、特區政府以及工商界的落後和保守，責任更大。但問題是，民主派作為領導的責任，就是在面對如此保守的對手時，如何盡量擴大民主的成果。你可能會說這樣很不公平，但這也是任重道遠的地方。
有評論認為民主派應絲毫不讓，在政改問題絕不妥協。「民主並非嗟來之食」、「民主並非施捨」等，這類說話當然可輕易說得冠冕堂皇，但這令我想起柴玲當年在廣場說的「頭可斷、血可流、人民廣場不可丟」。究竟這類慷慨激昂的漂亮說話，對運動最後是否真的有幫助﹖16年後大家都知道。老實的說，我相信大部分香港人，包括民主派，以及那幾個說得聲嘶力竭的評論家，雖然都支持香港盡快實行普選，但卻從沒有真的想過要為民主拋頭顱，灑熱血。唯一的例外可能是長毛，所以我對長毛也特別尊重。如果是這樣的話，那麼民主派就要在籌碼不多的情下，看看手上有多少牌，然後打出相匹配的民主策略。我們不是南韓，不是台灣，我們是香港。
「改革比革命需要更多的政治智慧，而革命則比改革需要更多的政治社會條件。」從近日各種的民調中，大家都不難知道，今天的香港，並不具備與中央和特區政府在政改上打一場硬仗的條件，那麼退而求其次，尋求改革，就需要我們的政治領袖更加成熟，不是單單當一個空想口號家。
寫篇這樣的文章，預了給人批評是「投降主義」，甚至是「出賣民主」。但坦白寫出這些觀點及考慮，是我作為一個知識分子的責任，責任當前，不容退縮。
就讓我再一次以胡平的一段說話作結﹕「(投入一場運動)決不僅僅是為了拯救自己的靈魂、證明自己的良心、實現真正的自我，也決不僅僅是為了讓全世界向我們致敬……更重要的是，我們是為了取得實實在在的成功，是為了改進我們生存的環境，是為了讓所有的人能夠生活得比以前更好一些。」
只有在這種自覺和清醒，講求成敗得失的「戰略理性」(strategic rationality)下，政治才能成就大業，而不單是追求個人道德上的自我救贖和夢囈。
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Old stuff - managed to dig it out...
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Monday, December 05, 2005
Congrats... Bachelor no more!
Why i didnt go to the demonstration yesterday is becoz i've attend Anthony's 'photo-shooting' day for his graduation! Congrats Anthony!! As a little gift, i've got him my 'son' - Tigger!!!
With such a nice weather, we took quite some photos in the University, n u know wat? i always think graduation photo looks the best on every person!!! hurhur ... all look decent in the pics =P
Anyway, congrats to u again Anthony!!! u r BACHELOR NO MORE!!! YYYAAAYYY!!!! n u r now even a MASTER!!!! hahaha
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Universal Suffrage
I feel ashamed tat I didnt go for the demonstration today re Universal Suffrage for Legco n CE 2007/08 (tat's another story am going to write abt)... even more surprising to me is: (1) ANSON CHAN IS IN THE MARCH!!!!! (2)sth like 250,000 ppl go for the march, as reported by the organizers (forgot abt these number games by police), tat stunned me as i tot 100,000 is quite some ppl already.
Turned out to be a surprise, i tot i always cant think 'out-of-the-box' -- at the time the govt is promulgating this Report No.5 on 'District Council Proposal', i tot maybe its a dilemma for the Democrats, and anyhow they shd accept it first, so as to avoid a 'loss-loss' situation for em and causes a future decline in their popularity, which is esp. impt at the current seemingly-low popularity of the Dem. Party as they r slowly losing grounds to other pro-democracy camps or even DABs; and also a veto in this Political Reform would 100% be blamed on the Democrats. This has somehow to be like the "Chicken Race" in Games Theory i studied in my political science class - the govt / the demos r in a truth-or-dare situation, the first one who first 'turn their car off the road' will let the opposite party prevails, but if no one is willing to back-off, they will crash... Now i think it maybe a wise strategy for them not to back-off, but only hoping that the government will back-off (think everyone is hoping that now)...
I always had this conspiracy theory (oh! me a big believer in this) in my mind tat the PRC govt is tryin to delay this universal suffrage stuff as latest as possible, sth like in the year 2046 (haaa sounds like the Wong Kar-wai movie), why 2046? coz by the time 2047, it's 50 yrs after handover of HKSAR, and then the PRC govt will hv the say on HK (after the 50 years remained unchaged promise by Deng Xiao-pin), and HK may by the time announced cancellation of universal suffrage!! geez, wat a fool to HK ppl! so we must fight by now n no more delay to HK citizen's wish to universal suffrage!!!
Just on another side of the channel, Taiwan is hving their local election on provincial leaders (wat a mockery to HK! at abt the same day!) n they r setting an excellent sample on wats called 'election by the ppl'... they can vote out the ruling PPP (People's Progessive Party) and select the GMD ... btw, it's always exciting to read w/ all those election news w those interactive charts! me realli a political freak.... eerrrrggghhhh =P
Turned out to be a surprise, i tot i always cant think 'out-of-the-box' -- at the time the govt is promulgating this Report No.5 on 'District Council Proposal', i tot maybe its a dilemma for the Democrats, and anyhow they shd accept it first, so as to avoid a 'loss-loss' situation for em and causes a future decline in their popularity, which is esp. impt at the current seemingly-low popularity of the Dem. Party as they r slowly losing grounds to other pro-democracy camps or even DABs; and also a veto in this Political Reform would 100% be blamed on the Democrats. This has somehow to be like the "Chicken Race" in Games Theory i studied in my political science class - the govt / the demos r in a truth-or-dare situation, the first one who first 'turn their car off the road' will let the opposite party prevails, but if no one is willing to back-off, they will crash... Now i think it maybe a wise strategy for them not to back-off, but only hoping that the government will back-off (think everyone is hoping that now)...
I always had this conspiracy theory (oh! me a big believer in this) in my mind tat the PRC govt is tryin to delay this universal suffrage stuff as latest as possible, sth like in the year 2046 (haaa sounds like the Wong Kar-wai movie), why 2046? coz by the time 2047, it's 50 yrs after handover of HKSAR, and then the PRC govt will hv the say on HK (after the 50 years remained unchaged promise by Deng Xiao-pin), and HK may by the time announced cancellation of universal suffrage!! geez, wat a fool to HK ppl! so we must fight by now n no more delay to HK citizen's wish to universal suffrage!!!
Just on another side of the channel, Taiwan is hving their local election on provincial leaders (wat a mockery to HK! at abt the same day!) n they r setting an excellent sample on wats called 'election by the ppl'... they can vote out the ruling PPP (People's Progessive Party) and select the GMD ... btw, it's always exciting to read w/ all those election news w those interactive charts! me realli a political freak.... eerrrrggghhhh =P
(see the whole northern part of taiwan falls to the hands of GMD after the current election)
